Here I am in my entirety
The story that burns inside of me
Flaws revealed
Every layer of the onion pealed

I have told you of my past
Feelings I have had
My hopes and ambitions
My life’s mission

Read these words, they pour from my soul
These words are my warmth in the cold
This isn’t just poetry
This is the beginning to knowing me

A man who lust for knowledge
Desire’s a certain intellectual prowess
I want to speak and move people
Make the walls of the hardest souls seem feeble

I can not leave this earth
Without delivering my true worth
So please, I beg you to read
These words are what my heart bleeds


Fifty Two

Fifty Two

A single tear slowly makes it’s way down my face
I secretly accept it’s warm embrace
It’s journey reminds me that trouble won’t last always
See, that lone tear is the last of many I have cried
The others have come, fallen, and dried
A walk to the mirror lets me know I’m still here, still alive
Grateful I stand
For trouble and pain has taken many a good man
I look again at my hand
Prepared to play what I have been dealt
I know the greatest opponent I will ever face is self
A whisper to God “I may need a little help”

You Stole the Music


As tears begin to pour
I start to wonder who this was written for
Invoking the memories of pain
This song screams your name
Will music ever be the same
Am I now for ever cursed
Remembering the pain through every verse
Will your song ever end
So that my life can begin
I wish I could love music again
Instead i listen to ever song remind of you
As I sing words that feel so true
For the world I pretend
That it’s only a song, all the while dying within



I don’t remember when we first met

Only pictures of her at her best

Looking back, I long for days like that

She was beautiful, without a care in the world

Breathtaking, that girl

When she was new

Just a view

Would bring tears to your eyes

Beauty without compromise

But as the days go on

They grow ever so long

She was no longer the same

Her beauty had changed

She had completely different features

It was hard to tell if this was even the same creature

Her true beauty now a rare sight

The she I refer to is life

The saying is, “life shows us all the same light”

Yet the light for some looks real bright

While others fight to see through the night

Every moment with her, one should cherish

For who knows when she may leave you to perish

But if not with you, the next the curse to inherit



As crickets sing their favorite melody
I look at the night sky wondering how far can heaven be
the last time I close my eyes does it take a day, a minute, a week
does it really even matter because this is my eternal sleep
what does heaven feel like is it anything I have ever felt in real life
why would the maker of good create evil in the same night
the answers aren’t of any relevance
but I can’t deny the question’s presence
is this a weak believers mind state
I hope this doesn’t mean I’m losing my faith
my questions are like cancer slowly killing me
and the answers are like chemo killing while healing me



Some days my Faith grows weak as I search for peace
Even weaker as I search for me
Trapped inside my worldly wants
And so say ungodly thoughts
Judged by those who are farther away from he than I
They sadly live inside their lie
With a pointed finger as their disguise

I do not pass judgment upon you
I pity what you are going through
It must be hard to wear that mask
To tuck away quietly your past
To kneel to pray
But to have to rehearse what to say
It must be hard to live this way

I will say this I do believe
I trust in that he died for me
He died knowing I wouldn’t be perfect
He died because he believed I was worth it
A man with Faith who has ups and downs
A man who has grown by leaps and bounds
A man who was and is a sinner trying to get it right
That is why he gave his life
So please let him be the judge
I mean it was his blood.



 In a world full of people realizing I’m alone

Not scared strangely feeling more in the zone

I’ve been here before

now knowing what it takes

you alone decide your fate

headed toward your destination

courage, persistence, and determination

no time to wait for help

you depend on yourself

survival instincts forgetting everything else

success is your only friend

and like true love you think of it until days end

you dream of it when you sleep

longing for it finding yourself not being able to eat

success means everything to me

just don’t know what success could be